A little lost

So,

I’m at a really weird spot in my life right now. I’m in college for a degree that I’m actually excited to pursue, but at the same time I have no idea what I’m going to do with it. I’m good at writing, but at the same time I keep second-guessing my skills. I’m okay enough at it to have won two awards, but what if that doesn’t mean anything to a job?

I guess I’m just a little lost when it comes to the future. My parents keep telling me that I don’t have to worry about that yet. They tell me to just worry about being a teenage for a little bit longer. In reality, I only have a few months left of being a teenager at all. 20 is coming up rather quickly. In 5 short months, I will be in my second decade of life. It sounds rather cliche as I’m writing it out.

Maybe they’re right. Maybe I just need to slow down. It’s just really hard to slow down when the days move so damn fast.

I know these posts have continuously been short. I seem to be better at writing articles than blog posts. Maybe if I try to do that instead these will be better. Anyway... let’s just get back to life.

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